Sunday, April 30, 2006

NaPoWriMo 2005

So this year's NaPoWriMo productivity has been laughable, has it not? I mean, I have my excuses, but jeez. Anyway, for the sake of comparison, take a look at last April's 30+ "poems": NaPoWriMo 2005!

Which has also reminded me that it's been just over a year since I started this blog... So why not post some highlights as a sort of Anniversary Post? I'll work on that.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Sestina

Somewhere above the breaking wet terrain,
a palace stands like statues in the snow,
and in it, walls of oil and shelves of Meissen,
canisters filled with honey, their lids attached
by copper screws, the kind that look like bees
crowding the hive, fond of their quickening Queen.

But this is not the palace of a Queen—
though, yes, she paces here as if to reign
over that quart of milk. She likes to be
around when the cat comes in; she’d love to know
how it is done. How he’s silent, bell attached.
She pours the milk; she pours it in the Meissen.

She pours the milk and starts to let the mice in.
This isn’t how it’s done, I tell my Queen.
And yet she paces, the burgundy attached
to her lips, those emerald-fastened eyes. Terrain
of feeding geese, of seed beneath the snow.
She looks outside to watch her Bartleby

hunt slow through fallen kindling, sleeping bees
inside each tube of winter. I count my sins
and sit alone; I wake the grand piano;
I sit and wait for her, my kindly Queen,
longing to ask her if she’d like to reign
over more of me. The bell of my mouth attached

and as silent. But she did not attach it.
And so she stalks her princely Bartleby,
waiting for his green hour, for it to rain,
for them to go out hunting, catching mice in
their milk-wet mouths. I’ve longed to tell my Queen,
This isn’t how it’s done. And yet the snow

falls on the towers, my failing tremolo.
Do you hear the bell, now shaking, not attached?
The cat is loose and now my wintered Queen
springs to the field to find her Bartleby.
I bend to rinse the dish and shelve the Meissen.
I call to her in tongues too white to reign:

Come, my Queen. I think it’s going to rain.
Your boy and the bees are back, so hear my sins
and know them— Come. The bell is reattached.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Ottava Rima

The record of the word performs the mind—
is in itself the mind, behaves as such:
it curdles at the skin, it longs to find
those answers lurking in the mouth. As much;
as many; more. It is the thought refined,
or nearly so; it is the tongue, the touch
of this concrete near-shape. But it resists
language until it isn’t one—but is

in that the record can perform the fact:
I can’t; you won’t; it hasn’t happened yet.
And in the ear, when the careful react
by sending back revisions, to repent,
the heart invents its shape—because you asked.
It’s not the shape your sorrow would invent.
It’s smaller, milder. Has no room for pain.
We punish it for trying… Yet again,

it is the record that we have to blame;
there’s no one left to point that finger toward.
Working all night at castles, paper cranes,
sea oats made lithe for this, your broken shore,
pianos not yet built, their wooden frames
still soaking in their brine. You can’t afford
to lose sleep, can’t refuse to go to bed,
no matter what the shadowed page has said.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Sirens

It doesn’t take an angry person to be angry in times like these, everything handed to us, everything piping hot in winter and ice all summer.

The roads are lit all night long and the sirens—sometimes it’s calming to hear one screaming at a good distance.

I think of times left the city, before, and slept in quiet locked rooms with only one layer of paint. Out there, you hear a siren and it becomes a part of your life. There’s a moment of silence as it hurtles past. Silence for its owner, I mean. Of course it isn’t itself silent. It’s a siren, dummy. But look in the eyes of your driver and you’ll see what I mean. The mind stops, gives you a chance to hope they’re not coming for you, to lock you up or put out your family’s house. It’s danger at its most immediate, that blaring red. When you’re miles from anything else and that one red eye’s barreling toward you.

But in the city, it’s never for you; the odds are in your favor. And maybe you worry how you’ll get out of it’s way, but as long as you think a little blessing for whoever, it’s calming and makes you think you’re a better person. Then again, when you’re in a bad mood, maybe, or not feeling quite right, and the first thought when you hear it coming is if you’re going to miss your light. Fuck.

That’s when you know there is no soul left. It’s all spent pleasure—not that I believe in the soul, really. But it would be nice and it’s a pretty thing to say.

.

Thing is, now that he’s gone, when I’m up in the tower pretending to sleep or crossing the street with my headphones having drowned out everything else, one of those bastards whoops its approach and my first thought is run. Look people in the eyes again and see who’ll take me under. It’s like having left the city where if the pain is coming, it’s coming for me, even when it’s not. And those thousand sirens you once heard and held out, or said a prayer for, are the first sign that you’ve lost, they’ve found you, and they’re going cut him out of you any way they can.

Several Silences in a Row

Sarah Darer Littman

I had the pleasure of meeting with a few teen authors last night, one of which was Sarah Darer Littman, author of Confessions of a Closet Catholic published by Dutton Children's Books. She was quite charming and told me the best story about her son. What a character! Click here to hear the interview between Sarah and her son Joshua.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Nico Portrait


Saturday, April 08, 2006

March - Phone Photos






Untitled & No Title In Sight*

For love, I would loosen the cannons.
I would step back into the water
and rinse my hands of the proof.
I would cure the wars I’ve grown to admire;
I would sleep with someone else.

But love asks nothing of me. It wants nothing.
I stop my work to turn the key.
And ask the occasional stranger what he thinks.
I try to enter you by entering my heart,
but there is no heart; it has no center.

People think they know what I mean.
They finish my sentences by saying
what they see in my eyes. There is nothing
for you here. The Raptor has spit you out.
You will never die, your soul

will last forever. And all that pain.
You asked for it, all this kindness. So
you may as well stop reading now:
if you don’t understand you may never.
You turn a key through the truth:

it is the truth you have to part
to unlock some other thing. It isn’t truth
you are unlocking. Do you understand?
No point in forgiveness, no point
in knowing ourselves too well.

We ask questions but we already know the answers
we want to hear, and they aren’t the right ones
always. Sometimes we sleep a whole night
and it feels like a lie upon waking.
To sleep a whole night without realizing

what is or is not the dream.
I love you, but I may never know why
my body insists we lay like this.
For love, I would object to everything I know.
To tasting and learning equal truths.

A little rain. A little shade from moonlight.
Moments of pleasure that no longer surprise me.
I’m sorry that the thrill is gone: sorry I’ve spent
each piece, some change gone. The smile withheld
and the bridge secure, no sign of breaking.

*not an emulation

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Quotes! Quotes!

When I asked what aspiring writers are always on the lookout for, several folks told me that they want quotes, quotes, and more quotes. That they long to find the occasional fragment and to know that it sent someone off toward the page. They want to be offered the essential bits as a lens through which to see the work of the person who has offered them.

So I've set up a page where I'd like to post snippets of this and that from my own reading. So you can see where my sleeve's been snared on the wire. Feel free to leave your own favorites as comments, too.

A catalog, then! Of what we are looking for when we decide to take the daily plunge... and what we come back to the surface with, in our hands or stuck between our teeth: talkinginthedark.com/quotes.

(Less coffee for me, I think.)

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

For the Confederate Living

after Lowell, after Tate*

Years of sold heft and spent labor,
of cole slaw thickened from sun and sugar;
years of tea steeped in daylight, the bags
sunk inside the gilt red liquor;
years building bridges over ditches
damned, spent hiding the flag
propped in the garage. Bridges that carried us
East and North, that lifted our bodies
or held our faces to the pavement.
Years we dressed up our ancestors,
wrapped them in strips of their own bloody linen,
sang to them of Freedom and kept them alive;
Years we let the gas run out,
let the bridges burn and our one splintering cross
be stripped, sanded, and repaired; no bridges
of stone, no bridges of amber; boiled peanuts
and kettled cabbage; those terrible crowds,
they left us alive against our will.


*I had the dialogue between Robert Lowell's "For the Union Dead" and Allen Tate's "Ode to the Confederate Dead" in mind when I wrote this... but looking now at their two poems, I'm straining to see where mine fits, if at all. So maybe this isn't an emulation as much as a misguided descendent of the two.

NaPoWriMo Indeed - My Month of Emulations

I've recently decided that for this year’s National Poetry Writing Month I’m going to write 30 emulations of poems from my Norton. I haven’t pinned down which to write from, but I hope I’ll continue the project (if I have the stamina) and span as many authors and movements as possible.

So be warned.

I won’t be offended if you cover your eyes. It’ll be over by May, most likely.

Monday, April 03, 2006

NaPoWriMo Already?

I forgot! I'm supposed to write a poem day and lame old me has been working on my novel instead. Grrr.

Maybe I'll just lineate it. JK

I'll have three tomorrow. I will not resort to posting old poems as if they were new... Not yet anyway.

Take this as collateral.